Brand logo dah siap!

Pengalaman nak set up your own brand memang seronok. I have to admit, the end result is the most excited moment. Fuh!! Relief!

Its all started with brain storming the idea of logo. What's the brand will be about. How elegant I want it to be. Is it a modern, funk mommies or just classic mommies or both. So I sketch my view of modern mommies...


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Then, asking a help from an architecture background cousin to help me with the design..since she's way toooo familiar with Photoshop & its brushes. She came up with several designs and I and mom handpicked the one really closed to our sketch. Waa-lah then digital design:
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So,..now all I need to trademark the logo kehehe. Last Saturday, when to Avery to pick up the garment label. So hopefully, by next month our business card will be ready. Wow,..can't wait to kick start!! Yipeeee!!

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Our Online Boutique

Yesssirreeee!!. You reading it right. I finally making it happen. Actually, me and my mom,...of coz. Nak harap aku sorang, macam siput lah. Ngehehe..

We are in the midst of setting up our online boutique Hauz Of M. Everything is in the pipeline and waiting patiently for the end product to be ready by next 14 days. Meaning, by end of November, we are ready to launch the product.

This brand are focusing on Mommies and mother-to-be (hence the M = Motherhood). We will create a tailored custom made clothes especially for Plus Size Mommies. Price range from MYR39.90 to 130.00 and the sizes start from L. It may sound expensive to some, but we are selling Quality :) and best of all, the clothes design are fashionable enough to be wear on post - natal (or even after after post natal) :P

So, semalam I and mama pergi gather all raw mats from my supplier. From Japanese to Indian cotton. Wow!!..its all I can say. I've learn alot about cotton fabrics yesterday. The best cotton of all = Indian Cotton. Price range,..perghh!! Japanese selling approx. RM20 per meter dgn bukaan 60" so still untung. But Indian sells at approx. RM15 dgn bukaan 36" (standard size diorang). Akhirnya, we spent alot on Indian materials. It ain't gonna be cheap,...but definitely, quality wise will be ensured. Aku sampai termimpi - mimpi nak beli semua kain Indian cotton kat warehouse orang tu. Lembut gilaaaaaaaa!!

Then, we shoot to Kepong to meet my label guy, Alvin from Avery Dennison. Stylo habis label baju kitaorang. But we also intended to get a mini size for Average line. See how's the budget nanti. Then, phone conference with raw mat supplier, kilang baju, next dgn Jerry our business card and clothes tag designer. Wah liao! Am very very excited. My mom as well. Finally, impian mama untuk set up balik butik dia jadi kenyataan... walau hanya online, still it means so much for her. All this while, tengok mak aku kerja keras untuk orang and reminiscence of her 'Khalidah Boutique' di Labuan dulu buat aku rasa sedih je. Now, at least she has something to be proud of.

So, hold on tight..we are 30 days to the launching day. Once it is officially open for busibess, I'll let you guys know. So, do stay tune!! Yihaaa!!

Decision time

Ok, so the new job doesn't work. What is your next step?. Resign je?.

90% of my friends and family cakap, relax dulu. Cari kerja lain dulu. But, since I don't want waste my time and energy, being me...aku berhenti je. I guess retailing is no longer my cuppa. I forgot I have left the non-day-off-on-weekends yonks ago, and it doesn't fit my bill anymore. Talking about reality bites eh?.

So, decision is = Quit. 2 hours notice. It was a bit chaos at first with the COO and I screaming at each other the end of the line. Guess, its a lose - lose for both of us. Beat it. Moving on...

Aku ada minta / cari kerja lain. Macam biasa, marketing, PA, CS..BS..crap. Reason I had to look for work is to make sure there is still a stream of money injecting to my savings account (yang kemudian tinggal $2.00 je lepas withdraw...sigh). I sense of perasaan JEMU doing this. Work like a dog, end up eating own shit (maksudnya, kerja penat2 utk byr hutang je). It's like an endless, repeating thing. Penat tau. Dah la jiwa kacau. Hishhhh. Until today, I still not receiving any phone call utk interview. Kadang-kadang bual2 gak dgn budak ofis lama. Kadang nak bukak mulut nak masuk balik, tapi mengenang JAUUUUHHHHH nya ofis baru tu,..aku lupakan hajat aku. Ramai tak paham. Bila aku kata ofis pindah area PJ, depa bagi la pendapat2 bernas. Aku bukan bercakap soal costing pergi balik, keluar jumpa client sahaja. Aku kira tenaga aku jugak. I'm handling everything at home (anak2..house chores,...masak,..urus hidup laki..diri aku lagi nak urus yg kadang aku tgk serabai nak mampus). I'm NO super human or super woman. If u can do it, I'll give you a pat on your shoulder. As for me, I had to search for a new job, walau dgn hati berat.

Sejak tak kerja, hari - hari aku melepak dgn anak2 aku. Aku make a point to bring my kids to Inlaws house everyday. Lama2 jadi cam best je. Hehehe...
Since then, diorang no longer going to day care. Qal is enjoying it. Mia?..huh lagi seronok. Dah tak payah bangun awal2 pergi pre-skool kan...

Hubby not pushing me to go back to work. So, I decided to take my time to look for a new job. Biarlah, perlahan2.. Cuma, telan air liur je la bila tengok SALE or any fancy shoes. Sob,sob..

Beginning of New Phase

Eh eh eh,..It's almost another those days when you realised.. ada 2 bulan je lagi dah nak new year.Wow!

Since I have not update my blog for quite sometimes, let me give you a summary of my 'life in cartoon motion' :P

1) Doktor sahkan I'm a mild Post-Natal Depression. I'm on pills for 2 months and stop after that. Try not to dependent on drugs. I'm currently treating myself cara Islam, step by step. It's tough especially with the mood swing but am recuperating.

2) I've been on suicidal mind quite frequent. Even riding horses are not helping. I don't really understands the purpose of seeing a shrink if he just keep twisting my words and end up putting me feeling more depressed. So I stop seeing him. Stupid goverment doctor. End up, its the family who's been more supportive then anyone else.

3) I and my nucleas family had moved out from Inlaws after Raya. I thank hubby for finally, taking the last resort for saving our marriage..

So here I am..hoping for better life. Ops, and yeah FYI, I quit my job. I just had too. My phsyco mind keep telling me to quit my job. Hahaha. Nah. I just got better offer. I can't resist. Call me an opportunist, but it's my career we talking about.

Hopefully I will continue writing. Tunggu my streamyx masuk je..

Work, wok, wottt?

I'm looking into a brighter chapter. I have tendered my one month resignation.

Yes, I'd already have another offer awaiting, but my heart keep telling to reject the offer. Gladly and fortunately for me, the management decide to counter offer (different portfolio) and I accept with joy (imaging me dancing ala Micheal Jackson).

In the midst of kekecohan (of my personal life), which include me packed my stuffs & kids leaving hubby behind and return 2 days after (parents advice...), sick daugther (shock to see her mom crying like a baby), my meltdown in public (because I only have 2 bucks in my wallet), finally something really makes me happy. However, the down-moments has left me with no reaction or facial impression when I was suppose to show at least some exciment to my management. Instead, I answered with a 'CEO' happy look, inhale a deep breath and exhale a word, "Thank U and I'd like to accept your offer".

So, next month I will bow and say good bye to my beloved department & will start kick ass job that I've been missing for quite sometime (4 years to be exact). All I need rite now is a pile of confident, a bucket of happiness and gorgeous me.

Unfathomed

It's been a while (again) I've not been blogging. Leaving the blog filled with pixel dusts. I have my own reasons for not blogging, not sharing my mind and personal view.

And some of the reason is, I'm losing touch with my inner happiness.

I describe my life as robotic, fake and empty. The only been filling me in for all this while is my children and my family. Work is one good reason for me to avoid thinking and reason to focus on something unrelated to my personal life.

I am not sick. I'm just unhappy.

I almost gone to a level of losing my mind until doctor had to prescribe me a 'ubat penenang'. And a psychtrist ask me to 'let go' the bad memories that haunting me and get rid of the black shadow that has been following me for years. Everybody has flaws and so do I. Nobody is perfect.

Almost 6 months I live in a staggerd life after unfathomed memories keep folding back. I blame on the return of some unwanted family members. But, I had promise to myself it shall not harress me no longer. Until, a new 'addition' of a family trying to be a 'problem solver' and rekindle a memories I wish nobody has not spoken it about (to her). Thank you for messing my life. I know you feel good and thinks you have solved an 20 yonks ago problem when reality is you've cut open a old wound.

Due to that, I resent to myself, my husband and my little angels. I change to more bitter, tempered and trying to cut lose myself from marriage. I just want to be left alone. I include less contact with my family except my parents & siblings. Hubby is a patient person. But, I don't think he knows that all the cause of my temper, bitter and ignorance came from a 'memory' that was spark 6 months ago. If he does, he might act differently. Instead of calling me, serial-depresser slash selfish bitch.

A week pass by after given a released by my company to solved of unsolved personal problem. I ended more depressed, stay at home, finishing my bead works. The off days was meant for being beside my other half. But some, prefered to work their ass off & having a wife is just to ensure their life is still in line, like their coffee are fix, cloths are iron crisp and kids are well feed. Another bonus for me, who are already a 'serial depresser' gets more depressed and wish I was a divorcee.

Some people says I'm selfish. Some people says I need help. But what I really need is a friend. I'm tired being a convinent friend. Like the 7-Eleven. You just go there when there's a need arise. I have a best friend. But I don't have many friends I can value as a true friend. I used to have many of them. But as time pass by, I or them moved to other places, or work. Somehow, my time or their time are no longer aligned and you need to fix a date to actually gets to see them. But, sometimes the time and date you fix in advanced kena cancel due to your resposiblities / work / life that suddenly arise.

Listen to doctors and my counseller advise, I volunteered myself for charity organisation. There I meet several people who've been in bad situation or brush with death in their life and yet they still can smile. Some verse a phrase from Quran, telling me God (Allah swt) is Maha Penyayang. If I ever in a bad moments, its Him I should talk to. Not to myself. Suprising, I who came from a very religious background can forget that part. Guess I've been not praying with ikhlas, seeing as praying as wajib, not for showing my gratitued and thankful to Him.

I hope my new chapter gives me strengh I need to stay in believing myself, my marriage and not letting a 'person' to ruin my life. Forgiving is an easy word to say but to really do it, with kind heart (and to move on), is not as simple as that.
I pray, one day, I have a space to give fully forgiveness to this person. Hopefully.

I had an idea!

Dah dekat minggu dalam kepala aku.

Aku ni kaki melayan YouTube. Mostly untuk makeup tutorial. So, aku terpikir untuk mula tutorial dalam versi melayu.
Aku perasan banyak vloggers yang ajar macam mana nak apply foundation , makeup eyeshadow and bla bla bla pasal makeup.

Reason being aku rasa nak buat versi melayu, terlalu banyak dalam versi english. Buat orang yang tidak pandai berbahasa english, atau minimal paham bahasa 'mat salih' ni memang tak berapa paham dan hanya agak2 apa orang dalam video tu citer (based on one of my friend feedback).

Kalau Malaysia, belajar basic makeup pun tak berapa accessable. Maksud aku, kalau ko takde duit nak pergi workshop, paling senang beli majalah or buku tutorial dalam bahasa melayu. Tapi, belajar dengan buku,...tau - tau je lah.

So before aku boleh betul - betul start buat, ada banyak benda aku kena beli untuk start buat tutorial ni. Of course, a webcam...since camcorder aku beli zaman batu nyer & aku tak tau ada lagi ke tak .......

But, like I said before, am a innovator. To kick start, I need determination. To be consistence, I need drive. So, aku harap korang bagi ler semangat kat aku yang selalu hangat - hangat taik cicak ni.

Ciri - ciri tutorial yang aku akan mula, is membeli product yang mudah di dapati di pasaran Malaysia dan mengikut budget poket kebanyakkan wanita Malaysia dalam membeli alat -alat solek.

So katakn pada diri sendri, "Chaiyok, Rida!".